october the 6thOMG WHY CAN'T I JUST GET MARRIED NOW AND ELOPE WITH THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE? WHY ARE WE WASTING OUR TIME, STAYING UP ALL NIGHT JUST TO STUDY. WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
i think i'm losing my mind. no wait, i'm think i'm growing old. hmm change that to "I THINK I'M DYING."
NOTE: never never ever mix McNuggets, Wonka candies, McFlurry and BIOLOGY together. i swear, BIOLOGY kills you more than how my Ares doesn't seem to be working. like why in the world are we learning about plants and our eye??? like who cares about how plants transport mineral salts and water or how they photosynthesize. AND I DON'T CARE HOW I AM ABLE TO SEE. AS LONG AS MY EYES WORK NORMALLY, I AM SATISFIED. I DON'T FUCKING WANT TO LEARN HOW IMAGES ARE FORMED. on the other hand, nerves are quite cool. yay drawing!
okay whatever. so last night's overnight session didn't turn out to be a single bit productive. i ended up questioning my purpose in life and asking myself if studying is really more important than sleep. like what's the point since we're all going to die someday. well, you get my drift.
then, i told myself that i still have a company to start. and since i've already promised positions to quite a few people, i shouldn't be so irresponsible.
but i really really really have no fucking interest in studying about some stupid plant or anything of that sort. so we left early, at like 5.30am. reached home at 6. since no one at home was awake yet and i didn't have my keys, me being the considerate person that i am, climbed over the main gate and sat/slept at the patio. it isn't the first time i'm doing this but i sure haven't done this in a while. waited for like an hour before Lyzel woke up. but she didn't open the gate for me because maybe she didn't see me since i was wearing black. so i knocked frantically on the glass panel and she finally let me in.
i took a detour home in the morning, because the normal route is dark and creepy. even though it was almost 6, the roads were still empty and silent. i could even walk down the whole stretch of road safely. honestly, it was quite freaky being the only one walking around. but, like in my dreams, i felt the same guy following me, leaving me to guess when he's ever gonna attack me. and since they are doing some cable works along the road, there are many holes dug and whenever i look into them i'm wondering if something'll pop out. i know if anything did just suddenly appear, i'd have screamed my lungs out.
but the walk home itself was freaky enough. like even with my iPod on, i could hear the sound of the planes taking off. maybe it's because i live like only one train stop/5 or 6 bus stops away from the airport. but what if it's something more? i don't know, i can't imagine. and i thought alighting at expo would be safer than and not as scary as alighting at simei. boy was i wrong.
just 6 more days to end of EMTs. I CAN DO IT.
life suxxx. unfortunately, angst-ridden teenagers will one day rule the universe so why not conform now?
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