all Sara wanted was her son,
all Harry wanted was his girl,
all Mary wanted was to get high.
but things turned out to be crap. like awfully bad. and i feel for them. thank god the characters are ficticious.
Jared Leto is amazing! he makes the movie even better than it already is and being the front man of 30 Seconds To Mars is just...(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y). WATCH!
Watch "Requiem for a Dream" Movie
but i'm warning you, you've got to watch the movie with an open mind and be prepared for whatever that's gonna happen.
i nearly cried after watching the movie. it is extremely heartbreaking and i just hoped that the ending wasn't like how it is because things would be much better if everyone lived happily ever after. but we all know that's not possible cause junkies always end up in hell. trust me, i know. i don't ever want to get into bad company again. i don't want to ruin my life because even though i complain a lot about it, i'm fine with the way things are.
family, drugs, love.
money, fame, beauty.
these are some things that the movie talks about. being skinny isn't all that matters actually. i know it's weird coming from me, but we shouldn't be so superficial sometimes. so what if she's prettier than me? so what if she's skinnier than me? so what if she's taller than me? so what? we just got to be satisfied with who we are and that's all that matters.
recently i went through quite a period of hard time. i was trying so hard to be noticed, to please someone who really matters to me. or rather, some people. but up till now, i still haven't quite gotten what i sought for. i guess i'm fine with that now. and to think i was so foolish to hurt myself just for the sake of someone else. but it's all good, cause i like pain.
Shuyi and I are turning lacto-ovo vegetarians for a week. it was supposed to be five days but i bargained to three and then stupidly changed it to one full week last night cause i thought three days is too short. who knows it's only the first day and yet i'm struggling so hard to resist the temptation of gorging down some animal. don't worrry, unlike Sara, we are not turning vegetarians to lose weight to fit into Janice's uniform or anything. but rather, we're trying to put ourselves in Kaushik's shoes. and it isn't a tad bit easy. i never thought becoming vegetarian would be such a challenge. but it's okay, because if this is the case, then i'll definitely outdo BBBBL! one day down, only six more to go. i can do it!
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okay i just found out that eggs are high in cholesterol (213 mg per yolk), and we should take in no more than 300mg per day. i had like 5 (or was it 6?) eggs today. i can't help it. i practically live on eggs. thankfully Shuyi and i agreed to include eggs and dairy products in our diet otherwise i'd really have nothing to eat. but i would have prefered it if we just stayed away from red meat so at least i can eat fish and seafood. but for now, eggs shall be my bread and butter. maybe i'll remove the yolk next time. maybe.
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