12th april 2008things that'll make me happy now:
1. colouring
2. a nice, long and warm hug
3. hot chocolate
4. long walks
5. heavy rain, without the thunder and lightning please
6. roses and butterflies
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today was fruitful. everything i did was whatever i liked or wanted to do.
had umpiring in the morning. though it was early and at CCAB, i like doing my job so i really didn't mind. it ended early so i headed home. got caught in the rain, and i was really scared. i had to walk across the field alone in the rain with all the lightning. i was thankful i didn't die.
the rain kinda got lighter by the time i got home. i wanted it to pour the whole day though. left my stuff at home and walked in the rain. i wanted the day to be gloomy, to be rainy and cold, just so i could walk/run/dance/jump in the rain and do whatever i wanted and feel free again and pretend no one will be watching and not be called insane. but it didn't.
at least i got to colour after that. (my colouring book got a little wet which made me kinda upset at first but i'll live with that.)
then, had dinner at some Thai restaurant. how annoying, i still haven't gotten my red ruby yet.
when i came back, played Viwawa for a bit and decided to get out of the house. i took a really long walk, making detours after detours just so i won't have to go home so soon. i think i probably covered at least 3km in 2 hours.
i was scared. i hate to admit it but i really was. it was dark and cold and getting late. strange creepy animals/insects would pop out of nowhere, scaring the hell out of me. not to mention the dogs barking. that's one thing bad about walking around the neighbourhood. so i headed out to the streets, to the roads. i don't know how i did it, but somehow i managed to walk to Li Meng's house. i wanted to drop by to pay him a visit, but remembered he'd moved out long ago.
we used to go there like almost everyday. it was like either his place or mine. and every time i go over at night, when i didn't take a cab there, he would have to pick me up from the bus stop because the path under the overhead bridge was dark and eerie. but i had to walk through that alone tonight.
alone. i did my night walk alone. okay maybe not exactly alone because i had my phone with me. but physically i was the only one there. i almost got myself killed because i forgot i was wearing all black and walked through this really dark road. some guy nearly knocked me down.
NJC better thank me because i walked around the Simei/Fengshan/Tanah Merah estate in the IP Preview shirt doing free advertisement. i even risked my life for that. (do i get more CIP hours?)
as i was walking, i thought about a lot of stuff. like random thoughts and past memories just appeared. some made me sad, i was indifferent to others, none made me particularly happy. i think the messages i received was what prevented me from dashing across the road.
the walk was long, but i wanted it to be even longer. i didn't want to stop. to be honest, i intended to walk across the island and see where i'll end up. i didn't know where to go, but i just didn't want to turn back or stop walking. if it wasn't as dark and i wasn't so freaked out and nobody made me go back, i would have continued walking, alone.
&i think i became much braver after tonight!
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Thank You Reuben, you've been awesome the past week.
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